(((((Fallenangel )))) I think everyone here said it perfectly. I wouldnt hide it from your t. You are close with her and you can explain it to her in the words you used here to explain it to us. I dont think for a minute she will be upset at you. The support group for SI is a great idea. You are fortunate that you have access to that. I agree with whats been said that your t will be glad that your seeking out ways to heal and get support where you need it, especially since you are seeing her less often.

Please be gentle with Fallenangle and give her the love she deserves