You are all too amazing and too sweet to me.

I've added this, with the explanation, of everything I need to cover in T today. I put this issue at the top of the list. I wrote everything down that I wrote here, because I worry that I might get tongue-tied or forget what I need to say. If I write it all down, there's less worry of that.

You are all so right...I just need to have faith in my T. I have no reason to think that I won't be heard or that I will be misinterpreted. I was letting my fears of abandonment speak for me. I'm so used to involuntarily losing everything good in my life, so I'm scared to death of losing T, and that's where the fear is coming from. I feel like I'll eventually do something to screw it up. I do just need to put my own worries aside and have some faith in T.

So in my session today, I'm going to clear the idea with T, and I guess we'll go from there.