thx for the advice. I know what u mean by being a child, I sometimes tend to act amaturely but not because I choose to however. Anyway, I did not really get a straight answer from anybody yet. And i did not really expect one, only because I would have found it myself. But because I could not find a good way to treat this problem i seeked help on this site. And therapy is a bit expensive so I try to help myself by reading psychology. Anyway, thx for the help guys.