Hi. I go to most all the different boards here, including the ED one. I haven't really fully accepted that maybe that is the problem. The possibility has been mentioned by one or two others in the past, so I know that it is something to think about. I just feel so confident and positive during these phases! So, of course I enjoy my bad habits. Like I said, there are times when my eating patters are more normalized and I don't care so much or minimally about what I look like, etc. I don't know. It's just that I worry about physical effects and damage to my body. I don't know how my life affects my body. It's like how do I know if any damage is being done if I can't see it? I think this is another area where denial probably comes in because nobody has said anything that it's happened yet. I don't know. I don't have a therapist right now. And even when or if I would, it's very, very hard for me to be that honest and tell a therapist when there is a change in my eating habits or attitudes. I tend to tell things long after the fact of a situation when its "safe".