It has been awhile since I have spent time here and I really miss all of you. I am so frustrated right now with mysself. I really feel I was making some progress with therapy and then this past session I think we touched on some stuff that really hit me deep down where I hate to go. We talked about how I start to share and then it just goes away. I just stop. I can't allow myself to reveal some of the feelings I have. I do trust my T and my T is so kind and supportive, but do I trust my T with my real feelings? No Why not I don't know. I so want to get past this I don't even know what to call it A Block? I am so scared that once I say it I will be left alone to deal with it. When I try to sit down and write it out that same block comes up. How do you get past this fear of opening yourself up and trustung the one person I should trust. My T! Hell that's what I pay for. My T has told me that I can share anything and it will be okay. I hate feeling this way and be so frustrated. Thanks for listening. I appreciate all of you.