Hi Friends,

I have to say I have no desire to have sex with my husband anymore, I do it out of guilt and thats about every 2 months I feel bad for him but I always regret it cant wait till hes done wish I hadnt said yes and cant get in the tub fast enough afterwards. We dont talk anymore before or after and I still feel the guilt and shame of rape and SA. He knows about it and thats why he doesnt push me but still I dont feel close to him at all during sex it is just very mechanical and it hurts and I want him to hurry and finish....I know this is not the way it is suppose to be especially after 15 years I love him dearly and care for him and he is a wonderful man patient and kind and takes good care of me we sont have any other problems outside of sex, and he also says he doesnt care about the sex and that the way it is is fine but I think he probably just dont say anyhting so he doesnt hurt my feelings I think he may resent me some....what so you all think??

Sincerely,

Roxy