I have wondered where to place this. Seems there is no right place. I am struggling with all three kids about different issues. The oldest is health. No cancer we found but a chronic uncomfortable condition non the less that docs admittedly know very little about. I can't protect him and he screams at me about his pain and his hardship. Maybe I should rejoice that he can be open with me like that. I just fel sad. I wanted my kids to be happy. Then there is the 17, almost 18 year old who we adopted. She is very clear that she wants to move out with a boyfriend who is younger, immature, and verbally, emotionally and mentally abusive. We are filing for guardianship. But she lies and sneaks around and is so very angry with us. She says she wants to come visit but she doesn't want to be here. What a waste of all of these years. My youngest has ocd and was molested as a youngster. She swallowed poison and drank soap and scrubbed her body raw the other night and I had phone and pager problems. She had sexual feelings. She called 911 when she couldn't get us. second time in 2 months. She is hurting and there is no way that I can tell her that sexual feelings and masturbation are quite normal. There is pain all around me. So I want to escape, run away. No suicidal posts please. Just run away.