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trapped with memories of then
shrouded in darkness
turned inside out
naked and exposed
nauseating pain
raw and bleeding...

in the darkness there is no light
shrouded
enveloped
bound
no one can find me
i can't find anyone
the wisdom
the peace
the strength
all silenced
for now

i had a dream of
flying
i was seeing above
but it was not flying
i was standing at a window
willing myself
knowing i knew how
to fly
i've done it before
i can again
but the window was solid,
thick
i can't fly

once again
trapped with memories of then
shrouded in darkness
turned inside out
naked and exposed
nauseating pain
raw and bleeding...

and i can't even fly