I haven't written anything in years other than very short character studies. I did one this summer loosely based on me and what might happen if I went uncontrolled for years. I was depressed when I wrote it so it has more of a depressed feel than a manic feel.

I journal almost every day, and when I went to the ER this last time, I brought it with me and showed it to the counselor in the ER. She said that I could do something with it and wanted to keep a copy. Even in my deep depression, the stirrings of hmmm, maybe I coud write a book and sell a million copies etc. began. Then again, I was in a pretty mixed state, so I guess that is completely possible to have the thoughts.

I just have to control myself. The thoughts aren't racing yet, but they have increased n the last few days and I can hear that my voice is louder, and I have a hard time not interrupting people when they talk to interject an idea that thier conversation has sparked.

I was once going to write a book of ideas for people who had a hard time coming up with any. It was going to be a big public service project. I crashed before I got started. I was also going to have a book of book titles. It would be published a lot like the Writer's Market books for people who had stories and had a hard time thinking of titles.

Yes, full of ideas, but the minute something has the slightest bit of displeasure or difficulty, I seem to drop it like a hot potato.

Gosh, I am all over the place today.