Well monday is my doctors appointment, it couldnt come sooner. My mood swings lately have been towards anger. Now its causing me to push a friend away. It is someone I really care about and want to get involved with but I screwed that up as I had my chance. Do now things have been kinda weird between us and she isnt all that talkative when we do talk, so now its like I'm giving that right back to her, like somehow my hurt and pain will be relieved in some way if she hurts. I know that wont help and its not the right thing to do, but I'm afraid I'm doing that. Well, I wont get into all of it. In fact lately I've felt like pushing everyone away. i'm feeling like the world is against me. It's a horrible feeling