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VickiesPath · Sep 12, 2009, 06:51 PM

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Originally Posted by thinker22

I've had this fear of sleep thing off and on since December. Mainly it's triggered by traumatic stuff, so perhaps it's my PTSD kicking in. Current week long or more fear is that I will die if I fall asleep. I'm not taking the full amount of sleeping aid I'm supposed to because of it. I'm manic and of course I probably need the higher dose to sleep and NEED sleep, but I'm too afraid to take the right dose. I get paranoid when I can't sleep so it's circular in nature.

It's so funny that I suddenly realized as I was reading your post that I have experienced this before, too and it was during PTSD. I wasn't wanting to go to sleep, either. I knew I needed to but didn't want to. I wasn't particularly paranoid but just didn't want to go to sleep. Maybe it's not so much paranoia but the hypervigilance. Or maybe what I am calling hypervigilance is what you call paranoia? It's a weird thing. The last time I had it was after falling down my stairs and breaking my femur into 4 pieces. I had it for about 6 months until I felt safe in the house again. It's been almost 13 months now since the accident and I still get jumpy sometimes when alone in the house. I never go to the basement or walk outside without my cell phone, even when hubby is home. Mostly because he is virtually deaf without his hearing aids and wouldn't be able to hear me calling if I needed him. Geez, I feel like an 80 year old geezer who needs one of those buttons! I keep falling down stuff. We have stairs everywhere. You can't get into our house without climbing stairs. And I"ve managed to fall down all of them.

Anyway, back to your issue, yes, I've experienced it too. I had to force myself to take the meds and just do what I knew I had to do and let them knock me out.