I'm sorry things aren't going too well--the hospital is never a fun prospect--I hope that it doesn't come to that--but if you have to go--some times it can be for the best. You can get your feet under you--I guess I condsider the hospital rock bottom and say to my self, "well things can only get better from here."

How are things with your mom? I can relate to the whole mom being a trigger thing. My mom drives me nuts contantly and she is 1,000 miles away.

So you cut last week and then three weeks before that right? And then your husband thinks that you haven't been cutting since last spring, so how often are you cutting---when did it start after your last hospital stay. Sorry for the laundry list.

So what drugs are you on now?
I hope things start to go better for you--
don't give up hope

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