(((7))))) i would say you have faced your fears and then some.... what about overcoming and moving on now? something less harmful but just as rewarding? humanitarian services are broad and include fields in homeopathy and holistic medicines, much less violence involved and just as many miracles.. the man harming you is where he belongs until he receives the treatment he needs... you do not need the treatment he is giving you.. maybe complete safety is an illusion but you can still create as safe a place as possible for yourself... caring always