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Originally Posted by dreamseeker9
Hangingon, I had one memory where I could see the room and the curtains on the windows, the color of the carpet, all that. And then the other memory was very fuzzy, just a snippet of something. I have also shared with T a few things that I don't remember, and I was old enough that I should remember them (12 and 16) - in one, I remember what happened right before the thing that I should remember but don't. In another, my brother remembered it and told me about it - I drove my brother and his friend somewhere without asking my mother. I had just gotten my driver's license. My brother's friend had a sibling who had died. According to my brother, my mother tore into me and asked if I wanted that kid's parents to lose another child. I barely recall driving them, but I don't recall my mother yelling at me at all. So yes, maybe it was too painful, and I blocked it out.  |
Dreamseeker,
It's interesting how our minds block out certain things. I believe it's because we dissociate as they are happening so as not to remember what was going on because it was too intense for us. It's a defense mechanism but it works.
However, I am finding that mine are not working so well lately. I have been having the hardest time sleeping, either it takes me hours to fall asleep, or I will fall asleep but can't stay asleep. I have no had issues with sleeping in a long time. I attribute some of this to the deeper work I am starting to do in therapy. Yet, I am in my last semester of college and there is alot of stress involved with that as well. Things like this can be very frustrating.
I am also feeling things a lot more lately, more overwhelmed. I am not comfortable with that either. Ah, all these things to work through.