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Wonderfully_Inspirational

Helping so much, caring so much, sharing so much.
(Just needed to say that)

The Witness
“Inside Out”

A special kid with shining eyes
He smiles at all the passer’s bye
The widowed ladies on the street
Say, he’s so special, he’s so sweet

He always has a smile for them
Says everybody needs a friend
Concerned they’re lonely, shares his time
Their warmth returned, it helps him shine

He cares so much
So many friends
Who on his efforts do depend
Troubled hearts and frightened souls
He can not help but to console

He knows the feeling deep inside
That feeling when you’re pushed aside
That hollow cold so deep within
How warmth of friendship fills it in

He watches for the troubled faces
Tries his best to fill the spaces
His mother always understood
He cared too much for his own good

His open heart was there for all
All they had to do was call
I know his true sincerity
You see, that special kid was me

That ended all one fateful night
When I beheld a frightful sight
Just outside a drugstore door
I spotted robbers on the floor

Dressed in classic gangster clothes
Not a feature left exposed
Hankies draped across the face
Just their eyes were left to trace

Behind the counter, standing there
I see their arms raised in the air
I see the terror in their eyes
My friends, just standing, paralyzed
I touch the door, I run away
That moment I was changed some way

I run straight home for shelter bound
My feet, they hardly touch the ground
I grab the handle of the door
It’s locked! Oh god! My terror soars!

I knock so hard, my knuckles racked
An impish knock comes knocking back
Electric waves streak through my skin
I cry: Open up! Please let me in!

Behind the door a playful tone
Says: Come back later, there’s no one home
Electric skin like prickly fur
And now it all becomes a blur
The door is finally opened wide
And as it does, I flash inside

Locked safely in my living room
My world has changed, foreboding looms
Police are all around the street
But my heart can hardly catch a beat

A sudden knock comes at the door
I almost tremble to the floor
What if it’s those gangsters who
Are here for me!
My family too!

Relief so welcome when I see
Detective’s come to talk to me
Their presence gives me confidence
They take my statement for evidence

Methodically they coach me through
Till I say the word they want me too
I never could have seen that gun
A fleeting glimpse
I had to run

They say: that’s as far as it will go
We have enough for guilt to show
They say they’ll bother me no more
Then a subpoena comes to my front door

It says I have to take the stand
And that is where the worst began
Nine years old, a panicked mess
The prosecutions “Star Witness”

Nobody can understand
This fear imposed by justice hand
In the court, expose my face
To spin their story, make their case

Facing both those evil men
I can’t believe, I can’t defend
Heart is pounding, need to hide
Standing naked, open wide

Now that they have seen my face
Where to hide? There is no place
Something happened, something snapped
my confidence has come unwrapped

The prosecutor’s made their case
The perpetrators in their place
And even though the verdict’s clear
I can't escape this anxious fear

Everybody cheers the case
But here’s the sentence I must face

Justice breath
Breathing down my neck

Stand up boy
And testify

I hope your pleased, you got those guys
But little do you realize
You stole my life, You stole my heart
You should have known it from the start

Push me out upon that stage
At such a very tender age
To criminals, expose my face
My broken life, it's your disgrace

Whatever have you done to me?
This scary feeling, can’t break free
It’s nothing anyone can see
Like something jumped inside of me

Prickling skin
Feel it closing in

Can't catch my breathe
Oh, not again

Sun is falling, evening comes
Darkness closing, need to run
Heart starts racing, muscles strain
Stomach knots of acid pain

Glimpsing shadows in the night
Like demons just beyond my sight
There’s no place for me to hide
Imagination open wide

Shadow breathe
Breathing down my neck

Icy chill
Of what’s in store

Lying in my bed at night
I cannot overcome the fright
heart so fast, can't feel the beats
tremors start the bed to squeak

If they're inside I'll soon be found
Lay ridged, do not make a sound
Quiet, only shallow breathes
Hold fast till morning, then I'll rest

Every night it feels this way
Oh God please make it go away
I’m more afraid to live than die
Can’t even seem to reason why

I can’t sleep, can’t go to school
I feel I’m under Satan’s rule
I’m so afraid they’ll notice me
Those faceless men, those demon seeds

I’m so afraid of what’s in store
I'm caught outside, they've slammed the door
I’m drowning, overcome with dread
Suspended in this static web

All alone
And so exposed

My confidence is off the shelf
Wrap broken feelings round myself
I hide inside and try to shield
I’m trapped inside this static field
I can’t come out
I shake inside
My door no longer open wide

My door was always open wide
Now all that I can do is hide

Two special people come my way
And help me through my darkest days
Special people standing by
Like guardian angels from the sky

Although they do not understand
They give me legs on which to stand
They seem to sense so deep inside
That frightened child who tries to hide

Nothing spoken, nothing heard
Console my heart without a word
They bring to me this sense of calm
And make me feel like I belong


I wonder if I’ll ever be
The person that I used to be
I really can’t remember me
Not me the way I used to be

Some other people try but fail
To coax me from my static veil
Though isolated and obscure
Inner feelings do endure

All alone
Inside myself

I work for years to build a new
Facade to help me carry through
Though openly I can’t support
From deep inside my static fort
I speak in whispers on the fence
I can’t jump in. I feel to tense
But still I try to do my best
Help special ones pursue their quest

Now forty years have past me by
I feel the tears in someone’s eyes
It breaks my heart to hear their plight
Those hidden feelings start to fight

Reconnecting broken wires
Inner courage it inspires
Patching up old broken feelings
emotions on, my heart is reeling

Still trapped inside this static prison
Inner feelings now arisen
Confidence begins to swell
I remember just how far I fell
Within myself, I cursed and swore
I can’t be like this anymore!
Then slashing through with sabers gleaming
I’ve broken free, my feelings beaming

I can’t imagine what I’ve lost
To people round me, what's the cost
Thank goodness for those special few
I remember now
I’m special too