Thanks Thinker- I think me & T are in the same situation- my moods are very intense (BPD) and when that happens I just can't think clealry about anything, they take over me. T said he cant help me if I dont know what *I* want, which I understand, but still wish he would have reassured me some. I feel exactly the same- that I'm "purging" sessions while I am like this. I hate it.

Sunrise- I have told T that I feel that something has changed betweeen us- that he seems colder and harder towards me, but he totally denies anything has changed.

I told him that I felt stuck and didnt know whether I should continue coming to T if I didnt know what I wanted. He pretty much agreed and asked whether I wanted to book another appointment. I said I didnt know, and asked him what he thought. He basically said it was my decision. I just wish he would have said, "but I still want to work with you" or something along those lines.

I agree- maybe I am stuck in T with him, and thats what we need to talk about, but it has taken me so long to "attach" to him and to trust him that I cant imagine talking to anyhone else. He is the first person to "get" me. I think thats what I will bring up with him this week, and see what he says.

Thank you Sunrise- You have "unstuck" me for now