I'm sorry that you are going through a rough time. I think that you know b/c you had the courage to write it down that hurting yourself on the inside will not make it better on the inside.

This evening I was going into a panic attack and I just wanted to escape. Instead I had to do with some of the feelings and it was TOUGH but in the end I created more evidence for myself that I could go through it - minute by minute.

I hope you are being kind to yourself and finding some relief.

How are you doing?