Are you seeing a therapist? Is there anyone that you are talking to? Are you reading the post-it's up on top of the board to help yourself find other things to do. I realize that I am asking a lot of questions but stopping is HARD - if it were easy this board would not exist. The longer you go w/o using your vices the harder it gets.

Please try to find some support around you so that when you are feeling that way you don't have to feel like you are going to hurt yourself. What you are doing takes a great deal of courage and strength - you can do this but sounds like you need some help. All of us do - I know when I stopped I needed a lot of support around me.