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eskielover · Sep 14, 2009, 12:27 AM

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Just because I...we, have cravings for Pot and we WANT it once in a while...and we take a med that is prescribed to us..just in a different route, when we NEED it...does this REALLY equal a "SUBSTANCE ABUSE PROBLEM"?

I'm not squandering my life savings away and spending hundreds to thousands of dollars a month on drugs!! I'm NO tweeker!!! I'm not using these drugs to get "high" or even using them on a daily, weekly, or monthly basis inappropriately. Why does it have to be a "PROBLEM"? What makes something a problem, anyway? I admit that it's not a good idea to use ANY drug or medication in any way that it is not prescribed to you....but I am an educated healthcare professional. I am well aware of the appropriate doses of Vitamin A and when I need it, I need it. What's so wrong with that???? I don't use it at work when I am practicing...that is not safe and would violate my ethics/values.

WHY is it a "SUBSTANCE ABUSE PROBLEM"??? Why isn't it just me/us doing what we need to do to help ourselves through difficult times. We don't use it in any way that wouldn't be allowed to us were we in a hospital setting!!

I think what your T is getting at is that every substance abuse starts off with just a craving, just useing it once in awhile....but then it grows from there into a serious problem. Try looking at the statistics of health care professionals that have lost their careers over substance abuse.....don't think you will find it to be a small number.

The thing is that if Willow didn't think it could be a problem, Willow wouldn't have said anything.....there is an underlying thought inside of you that is telling you what you are doing is wrong....You T knows it's wrong & can see where it will lead to even if it might not be there now....but your profile is such that it will turn out for the bad. Look at how out of control you were just purchasing the weed/grass...lol. Even though you got cheated, you weren't in control to really know what you were doing at the time & you were afraid....besides, when you get involved with pot, it is only the beginning step to harder drugs.

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About a year ago, we were very stressed out and needed something stronger than a Vitamin A pill to calm the anxiety...without really thinking about it...literally, we found ourselves crushing up one of the Vitamin A pills, mixing it with water, trying to cook it on a utensil, and then drawing it into a syringe and injecting it into a vein!!!

Another out of control action that even more seriously points to substance abuse....something people without a drug addiction tendency don't do.

Being a healthcare professional, YOU KNOW THAT if you are really honest with yourself your actions & abuse of the prescribed medicines all point to substance abuse just like your T says.

The fact that you are asking if this is denial, should also be a good indcation to yourself that it is. That little voice that is telling you that what you are doing is wrong is the voice along with your T that you need to be listening to right now.

This is something you really need to listen to your T about. It would be horrible to see you have even worse problems on top of what you are already dealing with. Know that you are cared about here & don't want to see you hurt any worse.

Eskielover