Dear Porcelain Doll, I wish I could be more helpful re the content of your dreams, but I do hasten to assure you that you are not being annoying. Do not imagine that anyone here will think that! That's what we're here for, and this is our place to vent and describe fearful feelings as well. We trust we will not be annoying you. It just doesn't happen. Long-term psychotherapy or possibly hypnosis is the only way I know to uncover childhood abuse events. But if you've tried to recall them and can't imagine anything remotely like that, I feel like you are right. I could be wrong! Perhaps you are having sexual issues with someone particularly close or related to your family, or someone your family does NOT like! Perhaps there are sexual issues you feel a need, on some level, to discuss with your family. Perhaps there are sexual issues which are taboo in your family, but which may be becoming an issue or idea in your life. Do you have a significant other, and, if so, how does that person figure into this? Are you changing medications in some way? Will post, if I have any other ideas. Sign me, Not a Psychologist, unfortunately ~ billieJ