Thank you everyone for your replies- you have no idea how much this has helped me.

Sunrise,
I bet he would be really happy to have you identify what it is that is unsatisfactory in your life that he could help with. I bet he would be ready to jump in and help!
I emailed T with a list of things I want to work on in the short term, and the things that I think I can manage at the moment. When I break it down, there are LOADS of things I am unhappy with, but most seem too big a challenge for me to take on at the moment. I hope he does "jump in and help"- I hope my email to him gave him that bone.

I'm sure he would like to hear your positive feelings toward him and your relationship.

Oh, he knows alright! We had a session a while ago where I told him of my strong transference feelings for him. I have been trying to avoid talking about this with him ever since. THis is something I know has to be dealt with, and it is one of the things I put on my list.

You are not a child, you are not forced to go to therapy and be with him. You are an adult and can make a choice about whether to be in therapy. -Yes, you are right- in my adult mind of course this makes sense, but the child wants him to tell me that HE wants me to stay. I need to grow up, I know.

Starlite- thank you for the pic- yes it did warm me Thank you for your words.

Dr Muffin- I hope to be in a place where I can deal with things on my own. I think Ive got some way to go yet though