I have both schizophrenia and DID and I wasn't sure where to post this, which forum so I'm posting it here...

I was hoping someone could help me figure out the differences... I hear and see and feel things all of the time and I'm not sure if it's the people inside or the schizo. When I have physical (the emotional I know are from DID) feelings (like I feel people get in bed next to me) I'm not sure what that is. And when I hear noises I'm not sure if they are my insiders or the schizo since I don't know many of my insiders. Than I hear noises ALL the time, not just foot steps but whisteling, tapping, all kinds of things and I'm not sure what that is from either...

I'm kind of confused and seeing that schizo and DID aren't the best combination... I don't know which voices to trust (although I THINK that the difference is the insiders are much more loud and clear than the schizo voices but I can't say for sure) what noises are real or anything, it's rather annoying! Anyone have any ideas or advice? I do have a t but I've only seen her once and not sure if I can trust her or her word yet...

Any advice or anything at all would be GREATLY appreciated!!!




Examples are...

For one, while going over my hospital discharge papers I saw in there that my reason (in 2003) for hurting myself was because voices told me to. I'm not sure if these voices are the others or the schizo.

Second, I also feel things physically which is strange. I'll be laying in bed and feel someone crawl into bed with me but no one is there. I've also felt people touching me and one time felt like there was wind being blown in my face with a lot of force. It was as if I was riding in a car going 60mph and my head was out the window.

Third, as far as the voices and the noises go... I hear all kinds of things. I always thought this was normal until my husband said it wasn't. Some examples... A little over a month ago I was on the couch and out of no where I heard a man scream my name. I was alone and the only person in the apartment was my 17 month old daughter. The man sounded extremely angry and it nearly gave me a headache it was so loud. It sounded as if someone was sanding right next to me and shouted directly in my ear, but I at the same time could tell the voice was coming from the inside.

I also heard a man say something to a woman (I forget what he said) but I'm pretty sure that part was the DID. I hear all kinds of things though from whisteling, to people trying to break into my apartment when no one really is. The noises aren't as clear as the voices have been though. I've also heard a piano, a baby cry, footsteps behind me, all kinds of things, but some of these aren't so clear. I still hear them and most of the time I can tell they are coming from inside but sometimes I can't.

As far as the seeing things go... Like all night last night when I woke up at 3am and was sitting in my chair eating (late night eater) I kept seeing someone in the hallway right in front of me, staring at me. When I would look directly at the person they would vanish. I've seen a person while sitting on the computer, RIGHT in front of me looking at me, I got a better look at her... Another time, I've been trying to have my others write or draw something to me for a while now and I've been going to bed with pen, paper and crayons next to my bed. A couple nights ago when I woke up in the middle of the night I checked the paper and saw there was a lot of writing on it. I grabbed the paper and walked into the living room. I turned the light on and the page was blank. That happened again a few hours later when I woke up again.

Given my history of hurting myself, and the "voices" that told me to it kind of worries me. I'm pretty sure those voices are the schizo but until I can find out how to tell the difference I just don't know what voices to trust...


Kris