i'm really sorry someone was mean to you and mentioned something about "drop dead." please know there are more good people around here worth sticking out the mean things said... someone told me to "%#@&#! off" and i almost left but glad i didn't because i need the good and those good people--real friend are worth wading through those who say mean things. i have a tendency to ask questions--from my past i was told i was too self absorbed and i should be more interested in others...thus asking questions...but this led to being labeled as 'nosey" and "%#@&#! offf" so just know you're not alone. some people are just mean. but there's many here who will love and care for you. i'm one of them.... i care...others really care....i encourage you to let all the good ones soak in because we want you here and are so glad you have expressed what you are going through. keep sharing....we all sincerely want you here...at any state...you are accepted just as you are