((((((((((( Elysium & All ))))))))))))))

I'm sorry you are going through this difficulty. I do think your T is right and can see the writing on the walls. Any time we use our meds in different ways than they are prescribed, it can lead to continued misuse and is considered substance abuse.

It sounds to me like Amber(you) learned or may have been taught that when things get really stressful, using meds incorrectly or other drugs helps to alleviate the pain and anxiety she(you) is dealing with. It might be helpful for you and T to come up with some other ways of working through the stress and anxiety that won't hurt the body or set you up for more difficulties. If possible, maybe working on more co-awareness will help as well so that you can take more control over what happens to the body and can help to keep you safer.

I hope I didn't overstep my bounds here since I do not have DID. I just hope that you and your system are safe and able to cope with the difficulties that come up in life.


sabby