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Originally Posted by Berries
I obsess about being a liar & faker of my mental illness.
Now my pdoc has decided to re-assess my diagnoses, thru psych testing, records from other doctors, interviews and history from me.
I’m afraid she will find nothing wrong,
and tat will prove the intrusive thoughts have been right all along.
I have had these diagnoses for 25 years & have been through a lot (hospitals, meds, shock treatments…) and my full time job has always been managing my illnesses.
If I’ve wasted 25 years and tons of resources, I don’t know if I could live with myself.
The intrusive thoughts were bad enough; now that I’m going to be re-assessed I am 10 times as bad.
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So you feel that this reassessment is really a questioning if anything is really wrong?
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