A part of the reason someone does it is it is a stress relief, when your hurt the body releases endporphins to mask the pain, there is a slight rush or relief after someone harms themselves.

Sometimes the emotional pain we feel is so overwhelming, we lash out and cope in any way we can. Or in my case, I use to feel like I had to punish myself, that I had to punish myself for feeling, for remembering things.

It is hard to understand, but I'm glad your reaching out and trying to understand,

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