TY for the safe hugs Sky
I have a really great T who's shown he really cares and is there for me. One of the things I remember from thursday night is him saying loudly several times. ( loudly I guess to break thru the fog I'm in ) That I was not put on this earth for other peoples pleasure or for them to just hurt me and that he believed that even when I don't. He said this loudly more then once. Just wish I could believe it too.
Most of the time I don't feel like I'm a person, but this object. Or at times a robot, going through my day and working, but not a person. I have feelings inside. But I don't know how to show them. I'm just flat and not there. An object.