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Originally Posted by Dazed and Confused
Okay, I tried the quote thing and it didn't work.
Re: your T's comments about your children and their eating habits, what is she now, psychic? There is no way she can predict this. Moreover, your habits developed from trauma (what I recall of your past posts), which influenced you, not your children. The fact you are aware that their observations of you may influence their behavior means you already have a leg up on preventing any copycat behavior.
Re: competing for clothing - This absurd comment speaks for itself.
Bluemoon6, I'm glad you're pissed. I'm pissed for you. I do think you deserve a different T. To think you paid for that crap ... Okay, I'm off my soapbox. Sorry, but when I read this, sheesh. Good luck tomorrow with your new T interview. And if you start to feel like you're being disloyal, remember the meeting you had today.
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D&C- Yes- my habits did develop from trauma. I know that even if I cant connect it to anything specific. Food was/is my way of disappearing and feeling in control of
something. Copying eating behavior? I think its a very superficail way to think of ED, IMO. My big girls dont seem to have the need to disappear into food. One of my boys is the only one who may eat too much, but he doesnt sneak eat. And he isnt heavy. He is just on the verge of adolescence!
I agree that the clothing/body competition remarks are absurd. I think she may actually believe this. It seems she doesnt understand what is going on in my house.
with an eating disorder I do know it is helpful to other aspects of my recovery to be eating enough to keep me physically well and mentally energetic. To say nothing of the obessive attention to food and weight being a huge distraction from deeper issues.
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Originally Posted by Ripley
with an eating disorder I do know it is helpful to other aspects of my recovery to be eating enough to keep me physically well and mentally energetic. To say nothing of the obessive attention to food and weight being a huge distraction from deeper issues.
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Thanks Ripley. We did cover a lot of ground about eating and I understand what she is talking about even if she can say the same thing in as many different ways as she can think of. Are you saying the attention to food/weight in therapy takes the attention away from deeper issues? We only briefly touched on the deeper mother issues. The way we talk about food and what I should eat doesnt translate into me being able to tolerate food in my stomach. And if I struggle and gain a few pounds and eat, I feel bad, stupid, as if I have done the wrong thing and want to go to my bed and pull the covers over my head and not get up. And then I will immediately lose it again anyway. If I woke up (as I said to my t) at 120 or 125 I would be OK with it. I just cant gain the 15 lbs to get there. I cant eat my way there. And I continue to lose b/c I am too afraid to eat. She cant help me, I think. She is very focused on the actual food I am eating and my weight being too low. Maybe the solution is another t and trauma work. Then maybe I will feel...whatever.....and be able to eat. I just dont know. I ate some dinner tonight tho.