Thank all of u for your support. It really does mean alot to me. I am just in a very low place right now. I do not have a therapist. I only have a normal doctor. He has put me on antidepression meds but that is all. I do not have the money for a therapist at this time. So I kinda stuck in this back place for now. I have many periods of highs. I have alot of racing thoughts in my head daily. I think of stuff that my husband may be doing that would hurt me and believe it even if it is not true.