Ripley- Im sure there are ED clinics and recovery support groups here. My t actually discouraged me from those a while ago. She said I didnt need it and it would take up too much of my time where I need to be a good mom. I disagreed but didnt pursue it anyway. I feel like I need a food babysitter- little by little adding it in. At least until I feel more comfortable. Its great you dont have to waste therapy time on food stuff and do it all at a clinic. I am going to think about it and look around. At the clinic do you do support groups? Recovery groups? Individual?

Youre right- the way I am thinking is a very destructive cycle/game and I wont be any better thinking this way. Between sessions IS going to be where the actual work happens- with every bite/meal. And my therapy I can leave for deeper or more intense work as opposed to my t telling me to eat for this or that reason. I need daily help and sometimes moment by moment help if Im going to eat more. My t isnt going to provide that! And I wouldnt want her to.

And like Sannah said- I can then work through the other things that felt so out of control in session.

Thanks-