Oh. My. Gosh.

I don't even know what to say! I'm speechless.

Trying to find words....

I can not BELIEVE a T would discourage someone from pursuing something that might help them heal. Even if SHE doesn't think it's a good idea, she could say something like "why don't you try it for a month and then we can evaluate how it's working for you?". She is not some MAGICAL person who KNOWS what is right/wrong for you. She is just a T. YOU know what you need to heal. Ack. I'm so .

For ME, it's hard for me to be a good mom when I am obsessing about food, weak from not eating, etc. I hate how T uses "good mom" to manipulate you into doing what she wants you to do. You are a good mom, moon. And it's obviously really important to you to be a good mom, and it feels like T uses that against you.

About your session...I think you were SO onto something with the feelings that were coming up around your mom/eating. I understand not wanting to go there with someone behind a big desk, and I hope you can find a new T where you can feel safe feeling those big feelings. It was a huge turning point for me when I could get to the childhood feelings around eating. After I was able to let myself go there, it was a lot easier to change my behaviors around food. Before I let myself really look at that stuff and feel those feelings, it was almost like I NEEDED to binge/purge/starve/COE - because I was working so hard to not feel, to punish myself, etc.

((((((((((((((((((((BlueMoon)))))))))))))))))))))))) I hope your T interview goes well today. It's time for you to find someone who will help you HEAL