Yeh, just because can seem like a darn good reason when our minds are against us. I'm not sure about you but i find having the thoughts worse than the times when i have no other choice but to. Maybe because they keep nagging and nagging and i don't care enough to fight them but i also am rational enough to realise the action would not be much use/helpful. Very much a limbo time.
I'm glad you are getting through it. Slowly but surely. It is tedious to do it that way, but it is the most effective.