Rap,
I think you made a good point in your post about email sometimes becoming more problematic than helpful.

As I am thinking more about this issue. I think what I am struggling with here is not really about the email, its about acknowledging the fact that some part of me is seeking attention from my T. I think is not having a clear rational reason for this behavior that is bothersome. Last session was kind of a superficial session- one where you talk about stuff but... don't really go into it. It hard to explain what happened but obviously I left with a little residual ...energy cysts that then ignited as the evening progressed. Typically, when this happens my T would responded to my email, and I would settle down and be fine. I guess this situation just shows that...the parasite is still alive and well and can still send me spinning. Maybe it is important that I see this at this point, but I don't like it.

I guess its clear that I haven't quite internalized the concept that Melbadaze mentioned.."we-just-plain-need-someone sometimes to support us and be there for us, no biggy..." I think I need to post IT'S NO BIG DEAL TO WANT SUPPORT on my forehead today. I still have a hard time admitting that I like, want, need someone's attention. Actually, I think this is the main stressor for me at the moment--seeking attention, then tolerating getting it, and finally being OK with seeking it in the first place.