((((((((blue)))))))

what a crappy experience. i'm so sorry that happened to you. yeah, hearing every word doesn't make for a safe place at all. i don't know, canceling 45 minutes before the first session is pretty bad. did she even give an excuse? maybe she had double booked and the lady who came out to get the other client was her? or maybe not, it could have been another t altogether. i think i'd definitely wait until seeing the other 2 before considering going back to her. actually, i'd probably write her off. blue, i have been praying that it would be really obvious who the best t is for you so maybe this is a good indication she isn't the one. you are so sweet and it sounds like you are having such a hard time right now. i think lunch with good friends sounds wonderful. i bet you'll have a great time and can commiserate with them. you could just tell them you are posting on a psych site but not say which one. i think that is what i'll tell my friend so hopefully he won't stumble on here and find me and read my posts about him.