Thanks Bloom- maybe it is a sign that this isnt the t for me. Or..I dont know...Im not so good at reading "signs." I agree that cancelling 45 min before a session with someone new and not knowing if the client got the message is real bad. If I like the other t's next week I'll write her off.

Are you really going to tell your friend you are posting on a psych site? Do you think he'd look around for you?

I was feeling so out of it today and depressed. I wanted to call my t. I would like to handle these disappointments more like a grown up instead of looking for ways to numb my feelings. I guess thats what therapy is for- and I dont feel like I have therapy support right now. I cant tell my t any of this stuff and even if I could tell her how I feel, I am afraid of a tough answer. Glad I have PC to post on...and friends to see for lunch.....