[quote=treehouse;1140087I think it is SO GOOD that you are having lunch with your friends tomorrow. Being with my friends always makes me feel good, and connected, and reminds me of all of the real-life support I have.[/quote]
Its so true. When school started again I realized how much I missed some of the moms I had not seen over the summer. We were all saying the same thing. We do a monthly "ladies" dinner and I usually volunteer to pick the place every month and make reservations....can you imagine why? LOL! Places with safe food! Whatever- most people I know have some form of ED. They like the places I pick
I do have a lot of real-life support. But I do find that I cannot be as candid as I am here anonymously on the boards. But I do share a lot with a couple of friends who have similar issues.
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As for the T...did she give any reason for canceling? That is a HUGE deal with child care and everything. The reason would be a big deciding factor for me...like if she woke up with the flu, I'd probably give her another chance. If she was running late...probably not.
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She didnt say-maybe it was just bad cell phone reception, but I listened to the msg a couple of times and it sounded like she was talking real slow and almost slurring her words. Im not even going to go there and imagine why. She has NOT left a message for me today. I am surprised at that. I did leave her a message that I went and waited for her. Very surprising that she wouldnt call again.
The child care thing is huge. When I left the office I was feeling so incredibly awful and all I could think of was that I wanted to be with my 2 yo and why the heck is she in school for so much money? I wanted to go pick her up. I missed her soft skin and her little arms around my neck. I had a fuzzy hour or so I didnt cope wiht my feelings as well as I could have but then I was much more present when I picked her up.
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Maybe you should check out the other two Ts and see how they feel. Maybe one of those will be "the one".
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I am going to do that- write this one off and see the other 2. And call the ED therapist.
Thanks Tree- I so wonder if I am doing the right thing. I want to back out of this whole process. She knows me and is concerned about me. Why am I causing myself so much pain? But you are right, I am loved by my friends in RL (I am trying to let that in) and I feel your caring here for me on PC. It feels so good to have all of you in my corner
