Oh WW--- my heart goes out to you

At a very low place myself right now--- your feelings resonate with me so much. I'm so sorry you are feeling as though your kids would have been better without you..... not trying to equate here, but I've whispered the same thing to myself for the last 5 years or so.
It hurts so much when things aren't the way we had meant for them to be. I'm so sorry you are feeling bad-- I do though, think it's very smart of you to reach out to us here. I admire you for that.
Hope you know there are many here that think you are wonderful and many reading this that can relate in some way to what you are going through right now.
Please know we are here and we care.
Mandy