I dont know how to stop this. When I get overwhelmed that is what I do. If I could just put some kind of thought between me and cutting. I had a disappointing thing happen to me today, it was a major trigger, but I could have not cut but I did. I do it in some kind of fog and it is a while before I realize that I could have not done it and I feel like a miserable failure. I just keep f***ing up. My feelings overwhelm me and I cant take it.

How can other people just be disappointed and sad and not SI. I want to be like them.