(((((Antimatter))))))

I dont believe you are a burden either

As far as your emotions go- I can so relate to how you deal with your feelings...and how you feel about them. Being triggered left and right, getting frustrated, annoyed, angry, hurt and overreacting. Sounds awfully familiar to me. Feeling not whole and wanting to escape this constant barrage of feelings that feel like horrible emergencies.
And then what goes on with your h. Sounds like my house. My h just doesnt know what to do with all of this sometimes. He can also go silent and make me nuts. Im glad things are better now. I know I can get so angry at my h for things and just not be able to let go of it.

But like Miss C has said- there is not place to put it- just get rid of it......with t...and feel it. I know its an awful choice. Not one Im real good at either.......