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Meh meaning like you don't care. But still I think some one should care. Their are other safe methods to make you feel more comfortable. I know what you mean the ugre is strong to do so. But when you do it's do late to realise what you've done and guilt starts to build up. All I can say right now is listen to music, I find it calming even rock to listen close to the words and just sit there thinking and maybe singing lol.