(((Peaches)))
This all sounds so familiar to me. I've been there, I am there. It is so very difficult. The only thing that keeps me going is my t's insistance that things can be so much better, after healing takes place. Sometimes I don't think it will ever happen and then sometimes I can see places where I have "grown".

It IS exhausting work. In the hospital they talk about how much energy it takes to do trauma work, like actually doing physical workouts. So, it's ok that you need to rest, sometimes I come home from therapy and have to go lay down.

It's ok to take breaks from the hard trauma stuff, too. But I am like you, I just want to keep at it to get somewhere. Pacing yourself is important too. This does feel like it's going to take forever, "it takes as long as it takes" is what my t will say. (which usually frustrates me--grrr).

It's no fun having all these parts with their needs and feelings and issues. I would like them to go away too, but I guess that can't happen, they make up ME.

Hang in there, keep us updated, and pm if you want. I'm here for you.
Take extra special care!