((((((Peaches))))))

I agree that sometimes the only way to move through the pain is to face it fully.

I think you're being very courageous, Peaches, and am very glad to hear that you went to your session with your T. It sounds as if you were very open with her about what you were feeling. That's a very positive thing. I have little doubt that your T cares a great deal about your well-being. I wish that you could be more gentle with yourself. It seems ironic that we are often the hardest on ourselves. I do the very same thing sometimes. Maybe try nurturing yourself and accepting your emotions instead of viewing them as a burden to others. I know...easier said than done, but it sounds as if you are ready and willing to keep working hard. That says a lot.