No its not like that I remember every thing that he does but sumtimes I just can't control him thats the part that scares me, I mean its not that I don't want him around because he is really the only person that I can talk to and trust (so he says) but the only problem that I do have with him is the fact that he is starting to make me believe in things that arn't real like that people are out to get me, he says that all my friends are betraying me and plotting to break me and one of my closest friends up, I'm starting to have realy bad deppression as well because last night I wanted to kill myself and kept telling me that I should do it just to ease the pain that I am feeling now and it wouldn't be the first time that I have tried because he got me to do it three other times and all the time it was with overdosing and sumtimes I cut myself also just to relieve the pain and I don't know what to think any more because I don't think I can live life through without him but yet I'm afraid of what I or him might do one day. what can I do about all this?