looks like T hates me or just has been hurt really bad by my blog
Could it be that that T is busy and hasnt read the blog yet? I know you are scared but it sounds like whatever you said was very important to you and has been on your mind for a while. If she has made things hard for you, it is a good thing that you have told her. She is there to try and make things easier for you, and if you feel you arent getting what you need from her, you need to tell her. As far as I can see, no matter what you said to her, she will be able to handle it and to work through it with you.