(((auroralso))

I know what it is like to wish for a husband or boyfriend, that is the cry of my life, always in the back of my mind, wanting to know what a relation feels like, the mystery surrounding it is overwhelming, if I only had been at the right place at the right time, if I only was less eccentric, less independent, less manic at all times, the if only's...

I guess the answer is that there are no answers....I, too have had a devastating life, just devastating...I press on, but it is out of fear, fear that no one can relate to me, that I am just too different..

What you are going through is hard, I thought if I shared what I go through, (I really expressed myself thank you for giving on the opportunity to write it all out) you would feel a wee bit less alone in your feelings..

I will keep calling, keep calling, until your phone is magically programmed from the sheer love I have for you ((((auroralso))))