Oh Deli- I am glad you got some sleep and saw pdoc yesterday morning. Im sure it helped. I was thinking about you yesterday. I have to say, I have done things like that. I didnt rip out hair, but I have done a number like that on my body in a rage. Mostly when I was younger, but it is very clear in my mind how I felt afterwards. And how I felt looking at the damage. With me, it is pure furstration and rage. Being completely and totally overwhelmed and helpless with nothing left to do but do damage to myself. I have done it many many times like you described.

I am glad you feel more in control and not in that state anymore. I have compared it (for myself) to an anger seizure. And after the smoke clears, its baffling how it happened.

Go get some more sleep- the damage will heal, the hair will grow quickly and please know how much you are loved here and by pdoc and austin-t too.