Well, life sucks. Im sorry Im not pampering you. I had a friend who was sexually abused as a kid and I felt sorry fo her and I tried to take care of her but she wouldnt change for the better and was completely incapable of taking responsibility and it turned out like an evil cycle and every relationship she had was drama followed by another drama. But you will have to overcome guilt issues and look at stuff that will be very hurtfull and scary to come back to. I admire the fact that you are willing to get therapy... that is immensely brave of you and you can do it.