Thank you for sharing, P7.
You are very honest and focused on what you need, and that is so very important...

Just my own experience.
I had to focus on my expectations; be realistic, accept that there was no destination, but there was going to be great improvement.
Great improvement meant to me also meant not being on high alert all the time, of course being aware of my surroundings as a safety measure...but it didn't have to be because of past events, for me it was a common sense sort of thing and did give me some comfort.

Oh, yes, the dreams...
or should we say nightmares? less fear about going to bed?
I found it very useful at first to keep a journal, write in it if I woke up from the the nightmares; as a way of seeing if there was a pattern to them
Sometimes it was related to a particularly draining T session, event from the day, etc.. Sometimes it was also for not doing the things I knew would help me slept better...
No caffeine too close to bedtime, a small snack of something that containing tryptophan, music, and/or reading, warm showers...all small things that did help.
Help all the time? No. Nothing helps all the time no matter what it is.

" beacause all the darkness or at least most of it -wil have ben replaced by the light of hope within my soul"

P7, it will happen.
Constantly, I have to remind myself whenever I am in a very dark spot;

"Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack, in everything
That's how the light gets in."
Leonard Cohen
Anthem~~partial lyrics

It reminds me that I do not have to gear myself up to be pretty in my recovery...
but I do need to look for that crack of light.
It might be an itty-bitty one that needs a magnifying glass, but it is there.

Thank you for contributing...you've helped me and I'm grateful.

In Peace

Not all the lyrics were applicable to me, but many of them stood out to get my attention...