I just talked to the man who picks up my dad for church. He agreed to contact me first. Making that call was hard. I realized that by doing it, it meant I was accepting responsibility & that's always kind of been scary for me. I don't know how to deal with my dad on a lot of issues & explaining why the doc doesn't want him to do certain things is one of them. I am Dad's Power of Attorney and sometimes I worry if I'm making the right decision.

Daddy has asked me to forgive him for the way he treated my sister and me while we were growing up. Sometimes he even cries when he talks about it. But when things get tense between us, I really begin to realize that I haven't forgiven him. I want to use the hurtful things he used to say to me against him.

One of the things he used to say to me was, "My goodness, Son. Be a man about it!" I guess when he said that, I wasn't living up to his expectations. I still cringe when I hear something like that. It occurred to me to use that against him when he was upset about not going with his church group to eat out. "My goodness, Daddy! Be a man about it!" But I didn't say it.