You know exactly how i feel. Telling this to a doc is one of the scaryiest things I've ever considered.

but some of the thoughts that i've had lately make me think that telling someone might be the last exit before I head down the wrong highway, a place that i only considered once before, but one that seems more attractive all the time.

I don't konw wat they'll say or how family will react, but i need help.

only bullets have defeated me before and now to admit that i can't control things, ugh!

Maybe bullets will defeat me again. an ounce of lead is worth a pound of cure or something liekt tht